What happens next?

I think the only reason I don't kill myself is because I wont know what happens next!

Have you noticed how when you get into a program and it ends on a cliff hanger? You feel so annoyed that they are going to make you wait to find out what happens next. Well, it's the same thought about killing yourself. It would probably be the biggest time in your life when attention is focussed on you. It will bring out different responces in different people. Some will be really upset. And that's another reason why I find it so hard. But then you think that they'll cope. No one really gives a toss anyway. They'll all say the same old crap. Out will come all the trite statements, then they'll go back to their mundane routines.

But for me, what will happen next. It would be a real cliff hanger only you know you wont be around to see what happens.